So i binged today ( i am a failure as usual)„ and after I did it I had this strange familiar feeling like i used to get when i used to make myself throw up.. it was a sudden need to get the food out of my system as soon as possible

Lately when i eat over my limit i work it off on my exercise bike but today i needed to be punished.

& now my throat is sore, my head hurts and my body is aching and all i keep thinking about is how scared i am that i probably didn’t get enough food back up and i wasn’t persistent enough im such a failure at everything I just want to cry

im so emo haha